Stuff Happens

Greetings all,

This is the first post in...well... quite some time, long over due in fact. I was going to post a most awesome quote by Martin Luther on the proper interpretation of Justification and imputation, but I decided to delay that till tomorrow or the next day because something else has come up....

Actually it is not just one thing, it is many things; and this Sunday/Monday they all came to a head. I do not even know if I could put my feelings into words, for the situations(s) are far to complicated to explain in only one post. I felt far removed from my Father, like I was on a cold planet with no air. A land where the sun shines no more and where the ground lays fallow for lack of rain and nourishment; and I sat there in this waste land pondering my existence: wondering what in the world I was doing and where everything was headed. I felt as though I had lost control of everything, which was not true, for to lose control, one must have it first.

Afterwards, I discovered the flaw undergirding my depression: I looked to myself, and not to God. I do not mean that in the vague sense of, "Let go and let God", but I was genuinely not accepting the Lordship of Christ. I was saying in my own heart, "surely the Lord hath willed that this should happen in such a way...": I was predicating my own thought upon God, which is something that Christ does not take to kindly too. Of course I was depressed, I was looking to myself and myself only. I was not primarily looking to God, and trying to do whatever He has given unto me to do. Instead, I was trying to know and do everything, and that did not turn out so well. The Scripture repeats over and over and over that salvation is of the LORD only. There is no other medium; there is no other means to attain peace and stillness. We must hold out until He Than Which No Greater Can Be Conceived decides that it is his time to act. So, until His time, stuff may happen. Truth be told, stuff is almost guaranteed to happen. Often the Lord uses fire to prove His instruments; trials keep us prepared to admit our insufficiency. What better way for us to understand the miraculous revelation of YHWH: THE I AM.

I just wish it were not so long till trials were over. I wait for the dawning of the Completed Kingdom of Christ. O, what a day. Till then we must endure all kinds of situations, that we may truly grow and see the glory of God more and more; day by day.

God is Sovereign. If He wasn't, I think we would go insane.